Oh wait, I didn’t. Cause I didn’t even get to even sleep =_=

Anyway, went into the shower, turned on the tap, let the water rain out of the shower head and just… screamed.

SO

FRIGGIN

STRESSED!!!!!

I wanna complain my head off but I’m not exactly sure to whom. College mates? Half of them don’t care, the other half would care and I would feel bad and annoyed with my annoying self cause I’ll be disturbing them when I know they’re going to the same hell as I am. Old schoolmates would just make fun of me. Family, they were the first to tell me off about complaining and crying saying it doesn’t solve a single thing (I got locked out of the house for crying when I was younger, obviously not as brutal as others but yea, I learned my lesson from there and obviously the most logical thing to do when you’re locked out is well, go out so, I attempted to run away only to be caught lol).  Though I’ll admit it doesn’t solve a thing but studies have shown that by complaining, it reduces stress levels! Or something like that. Point is, I need to complain. I would have typed out a 2000 word essay of complaint into this blog but my fingers were not fast enough to express the words in my head.

Sigh… shall just keep it to myself and let it pass. Only a few more days to sweet temporary freedom which won’t even last for 24 hours :)

Ahahaha I have so much to update on but I’ve been too depressed with studio but just a few minutes ago something amazing happened. I dunno what compelled me to e-mail a radio station overseas at UK which plays online and errr… well… how often do you get a listener from Malaysia? I got mentioned ahahahaha!

So yea, have been listening since 2am for the sake of well, accompaniment while doing studio and well, I think I got hyper or something and started e-mailing them  and couldn’t wait any longer since it was 4am. I didn’t even mention what I thought of the show but just went staright to ‘I want to listen to Faded Cadence’… in fact, I should send an e-mail to thank them and congratulate them…

Erm, so yea, ahahaha I wrote some crap e-mail and they said ‘We have gotten another  upgrade in the international arena getting a listener from Malaysia who is requesting us to play Faded Cadence and don’t worry, we’ll play it in 5 minutes time so Ilinaz, stay tuned.’

I choked on my Ipoh White Coffee. Okay, back to studio and erm… sending a thank you e-mail I guess.

Edit : Rather than sending a thank you e-mail I ended up complaining to the band saying that if it doesn’t play soon I’ll head to bed. What the hell am I doing….

Edit edit : Oh shit… the band members just read this… should have written this blog post in Malay /facepalms

Sem 4 is coming to a very bad end pretty soon. I can practically smell the failure at the end of the road. Yes, I am a pessimist I admit that and I know I don’t hide it. Being proud of it, I’m not sure whether that’s pessimistic or not. I am one helluva confused pessimist. Anyway, my phone box exploded, along with the wire connecting my modem to the telephone. It practically burned and melted itself stuck inside the bloody thing so now I’m totally… internetless and home phone less. I dunno, I’m SUBTLY telling my father to give up and get a new house phone number and at the same time sign up for Unifi. Not living with an internet connection sux. Not the part where I don’t get updated with my animes and shows and band updates but the part where I can’t do a bloody shit about my assignments without researching.

Anyway, I came back from my horrible internal crit the other day and saw a small white box outside my door. My first thought was, ‘OMG LIAR GAME!’, obviously I’ve been watching too much drama. Well, I walked and came closer and picked the box up and saw the words, BLACKBERRY. Oh hell yes you’re right. Honestly, I’m no fan of blackberry but just touching the bloody thing, using it and all, I quickly threw away my dislikes. But after merely a few days of using it, I’m already starting to get pissed at it. The sms service, well, it’s similar to chatting, you send stuff by pressing enter the only big bloody friggin problem being the enter button is directly below the delete button and the blackberry squishes all the keys (QWERTY keyboard no less) into such a small friggin space I keep sending msgs before I’m done with it. Another thing is, since my dad got it for free and not under any sort of plan, I can’t use the wifi. WHAT, may I repeat, WHAT is the point of having a blackberry if you can’t bloody access the internet? (The best part is my father is also appalled I’m using the blackberry for texting ONLY cause, you know, accountants? They want more value than you can get from the bloody thing).

As if that wasn’t enough, I went to 4 bloody Celcom shops to finally rectify the problem. I went from Midvalley to Subang Parade to Summit, I nearly wanted to strangle all the chummy retail workers. YOU’RE NOT HELPING ME AT ALL!

Anyway, the blackberry contract lasts until… September I think so if I wanted it by then, I’d have to pay for it. THAT or get myself a phone. Since I got employed, daddy doesn’t want to give me allowance anymore (pfft accountants) big problem being didn’t he realized I’m only working in June and I get my allowance at the end of the month? So now my petrol is at a seriously low level and I only have 10 bucks in my wallet. Maybe I’ll go sell myself now. Now, on to last sat’s dinner :)

Wasabi….? Or green tea ice cream…? XD

Now… back to work….

In an effort to turn for the better - and cause I fear my relatives or in fact anyone might one day find my blog if I accidentally die or something and scorn the ever swearing me - I’ve decided to erm, tone down my swear word usage. So anyway, pissy entry RIGHT AHEAD.

After that incident when my head bled I took my doctors advice seriously. Well, not his but more like the dermatologist. Which actually, applies to his advice. I stopped eating out - or at least the fried stuff - and opted for home cooked food to ensure that I totally know the ingredients. So why is it? That today, suddenly, my leg was itchy and one hand went down to soothe the itch and came up covered in blood? And there’s my left arm which is totally red and swollen and slightly bleeding. Oh wait, okay, I realized I had takoyaki today. Does this mean for the rest of my life I’m supposed to evade eating out?! NO WAY! And I ran out of those anti-inflammatory drugs and pain killers and what not from last 2 weeks :( *scratches hand miserably*

Thankfully weekend dinner with family is gonna be Soooshheeee. Cannot wait!

Anyway, assignment is a bitch. Bitch is not a swear word. It’s a female dog. I’m merely likening a building to a female dog. A pug. So yea, I dunno what I’m doing for my mosque. I’m not sure any longer.  I feel like I totally suck at designing. Which, I do actually. Ergh… I wanna quit Architecture…. OR NOT! THINK POSITIVE! I LOVE ARCHITECTURE! Oh who am I kidding… ergh…

Gonna cry over my vagina/boob/next-it’s-gonna-be-a-penis mosque now :(

SOOSHEE!!!

Which came with a very weird looking wasabi… okay more like that was me fooling around…

Amazing dessert! Then again, when is dessert not amazing? <3

Sooshee wa ii yo~~~ UMAI yo~~ <3