I need a place to vent out my anger. I’m used to getting angry infront of people geting angry when nobody is close to me seems so odd! Hence, I shall post it in LJ so that the person I’m angry at will actually read it!

You know when you have organized your week, especially when it’s the holidays, so that your week will be proper and your holidays will not be wasted? Well, I had my week planned. I need to complete the drawings for the cards and of course, marathon yamapi <3 and err… driving lessons…. study up building materials…

When my monday turned out okay with everything going smoothly I was fine. the Yamapi marathon got postponed to Tuesday, not that I mind cause I would prefer that anyway. Then came the problem. Orihime’s boobs were out of shape. So A CERTAIN SOMEONE decides to correct it for me. I obliged. I waited. She went offline. Okay, I don’t mind. Next day, I woke up and saw her offline msg on my msn. Where’s the link to the corrected orihime?! No where to be found. Waited one day for her to come online, had my yamapi marathon. Came online at night again, no msgs…

Tuesday pass and Wednesday starts. I stayed up until 3am waiting for her to come online. Finally gave up and headed to bed. Woke up the next morning and quickly checked msn. None. Waited. Continued with Yamapi marathon and friends called to watch movie. Before leaving, checked msn. Nothing. Came home from movie at 11 and realized FINALLY there was a msg from at 8pm. Finally she was online. Felt slightly pissed. then she said she was drawing. Felt pissed.

I mean seriously! I won’t be free next week! I have like… Building Materials exam, Technical English reviewing essay thingy, Intro to Design project, Malaysian Studies presentation, where the hell am I supposed to find time to colour and draw Ishida?! God I feel like… everything I planned crumbled just because of that! Pissed is an understatement. I’M ANGRY! I think the last time I felt this angry was when I was in Form 4. Screaming at the hall. God…

I called, I texted I would have called her house if I didn’t find out that the reason she did not do it was such a stupid reason! OMG!!!!! If it was something like there was a funeral it’s accepted BUT DEPRRESSION?! I don’t think depression is a good excuse if you were working! OMG I FEEL SO PISSED! Yea. blame me for not getting depressed when everyone else is having PMS! Ergh.. I should be more tolerant… dun wanna have to go to hospital OMG SO PISSED SO SO SO PISSED!!!!

I watched Taiyou no Uta yesterday night. While all my other college friends messaged me going all ‘FUCK THIS CHESS SET!’ and ‘HOW THE HELL DO YOU FUCKING DO IT?!’ I was happily watching YUI singing and running away from the sun. Ended up lseeping close to 3am cause it was a 2 hour movie. Next morning I rapped Vincent on the head cause my voice was husky and my eyes were puffy from the lack of sleep thanks to HIM, borrowing the CD to me! It was a good movie *sigh*

Got Tsukamoto Takashi in it, the guy from Batle Royale. HE’S NOT HOT. I was expecting an oh so hot guy I could drool over but I guess Yamapi is still soo much better. No really. yamapi is like.. 1000000000000000000000000000000000000000000x beter! But the songs are so nice and she makes me wnat to play the guitar again. Maybe I shall grope the guitar again after moths of abandoning it -_-.

This morning I woke up late and pretty much rushed to college. On the way to college, showed my mum the acceptance letter I printed out. I dunno now… I’m like.. 80% want to go to UTM. In class today, while we had Design Comm, since lots of people have yet to complete their assignment so I, having completed my chess set asked the teacher (who has only taught us for 1 week, this is his second), without being bias, would it be better if I go to UTM instead of Taylors. He said yes, go for it. Taylors is better but from his point of view, in the end I plan to go overseas so that makes not much difference. Just that in a public uni, I will be taught more on Malyasian infrastructures. Suddenly the whole class went NO! They scolded the teacher for encouraging me to go. The lecturers expression was hilarious, he was shocked that even though we were only in our first semester we were all so close already and they said that my noisyness brought them together (WTF right?! But it was really REALLY funny seeing them scold the teacher).

So class proceeded like normal for another 3 more hours and then by the time when only me, Yew Sang and Ian were left in the class, he approached me and told me after giving a second thought it would be better for me to stay in Taylors since I was good for the class. I dunno what to say… Haha… I feel touched but err.. weirded out… It’s like, when I tell people I got accepted they go all ‘GO LAH! GO LAH!’ but all of the people who shooed me told the lecturer off for encouraging me and even begged me to stay by threatening me with waffle, bubble tea and movies! So right now I’m really.. Dunno… should I go? According to the lecturers, what we learn are the same. But he said UTM and Taylors are on par and UiTM has the worse reputation so far for architecture. He doesn’t seem like the type who would lie. He sounds really professional and I love his lectures so should I trust him and go? Or should I enjoy the free treats ;)?

Anyway, after college went to have Wendy’s with Ian. Our first time at Wendy’s so I dared him to eat 3/4 pounder. IT WAS SHIT HUGE AND IT COSTED ME RM15!!! He finished it with ease then we headed to McD where we saw the new megamac and he asked me whether I would dare him to eat that. CRAZY! The wendy’s burger had 3 meat patties, Megamac had 4 meat patties and 3 layers of bun! HOW THE HELL WILL THOSE FIT IN A PERSONS MOUTH?!

Today I met Chantelle after her finals. She has 2 more papers to go. Technical English. Then it’s a 3 months brak for her while we March intake struggle with 14 weeks worth of work compressed into 12 weeks! Oh yea, last night Nana texted me saying that she was wearing her baju kurung tomorrow so I wore a baju kurung today. Looks like Yusrina wore her baju kurung too. People stared. Cheng laughed.

Also, the number of people bullying me has increased. Just now, Yen Ying had fun tying my hair. Ken helped and not to mention poked me at the waist multiple of times until I accidentally kicked his crotch. And they even bully me in groups calling out my name from no where while I am drawing! D: Finally, Julian called me from studio 10 and went ‘IT’S REALLY FUN TO BULLY YOU LA!’ for no apparent reason -_-

and thus, I conclude this whole entry with a message for everyone who bullies me! Putih, Cocot, Popot, Kali…

NO LIFE