Supernatural Marathon back to back episodes from season 1 episode 1 to season 3 episode 8 has officially ENDED.

IT WAS GOOD. This room became the place I hanged out in most often. So yea, how exactly did the marathon go? Well, the first night morning whatever, around 5am I accidentally fell aasleep. Lol. Then the 2nd day, Pei accidentally slept in the afternoon. Then the 3rd day had a huge gap in it cause I had to go for prayers. All in all I get a minimum of 2 hours sleep per day? 3 hours tops! Except for the ay before Eid cause I had to have my beauty sleep but that too was only for 4 hours?

During breaks, I call my younger brother up and watched Reborn. Managed to watch until episode 18 the valentines episode. Glad to see the art improved. Even my younger bro agreed. He pointed it out actually. I have taught him well. As for the bgm, can’t really say right now since I only watched it once. First round is to get used to it so I shall watch it again!

Also, after watching Psych, I watched 1 part of 10th Kingdom. I’m still abit weirded out but hey, it’s only the first episode. I shold be going to sleep now but I inspiration suddenly struck so here I am typing nonsense into notepad hoping that I am not typing out crap since I haven’t slept much and I don’t think I’ll be sleeping until around 8am.

Also why marathoning I CG’ed a crappy thing which after further inspection quite disappoint me. Ah well I tried my best but I really had fun and it kept my hands occupied. If my hands I would have fallen asleep a long time ago.

Anyway gonna continue typing so talalala~

draft only though…

EDIT: I TRIED TO SLEEP BUT ONLY SLEPT FOR 1 HOUR THAN WOKE UP! SHIITT!!! Now, let’s try burning CD’s…

I didn’t really get to enjoy this day much cause I was mostly stuck at the booth SADLY. ERGH! I kinda regret! I have saved my money for this event and I still managed to save my money! Anyway, today’s haul wasn’t much… today’s cosplay pic isn’t much either. I WANTED TO TAKE PICS WITH THE PAC PAC MAN! BUT I HAD TO DRAW ;_;. PAC PAC!!!

SECOND DAY HAUL!

Stickers

Sketches that putih got for me cause I was too busy to care!

Just bought vol 4 and 5 but showing off the whole set. I managed to bargain for the bag! Costs very litle but hey! It’s a bag!

GOt the post card free, the keychains are just there cause… I thought they were cute…

COSPLAYERS!

Her outfit was sorta kinda cool so yea, it was worthy taking a pic of her

The first thing I did when I saw them. I practically dragged them (not unusual since that was what I did yesterday too!)

The two mukuro’s! There were various tridents found around the hall lol.

Half way through posing, Ken started sneezing like.. lotsa times and it was hilraiou cause he did that dog looking shaking his head thing lol.

I dunno who they are but the pose looks cool. Future reference!

Another Kakuyou moment

I found this soo cute! XD

It was nearby… and I felt really tired of standing in one place.

I couldn’t fit them into one pic eventhough I told them CLOSER!!!

I was drawing so I couldn’t move from my seat to take an actual pic.. SADLY

Weird angle is cause I was stuck in my seat yet again. I just found the nose bleeding effect so cute.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST, MUKUBEL MOMENT!

AND THE BREAKTHROUGH

SOrry couldn’t take more pics… I had to go home early or else.. could have taken Bianchi and GOkudera together *_* OH THE VARIOUS POSES! And I SO WANTED HIBARI TO BE PUSHED DOWN BY BEL BUT HIBARIN WON’T CO-OPERATE!!!!! DAMMIT!!!!

PROM WAS HELLUVA FUN!!!! THe food was.. bland but We get to meet everyone! So many people changed that we barely recognized each other! Prom also has led me to not come online for a few days. NOT REALLY. Kinda but NOT REALLY. I dnuno what happened on monday… tuesday went out to buy dress, wednesday, spent the whole day scraping dry skin offa me and also pedicure at home of course and Thursday… Thursday was THE day. Had to go to the salon twice cause my hair kept uncurling. I gave up by the end of the day.. it just continued uncurling =_= I settled with wavy hair cuase I think if I went to the salon, my hair would lose their life! I want my hair to stay healthy!

Next week I’m so staying at home! I have gone out too much

CF was today! I had lotsa fun! NOw, CF pics! Prom pics will come next cause… they are all in the laptop ^^’

I really bought alot didn’t I…? Thank god I had saved my money and thank god I had that guest artist thing (which provided me with small change!)

I’ll start off with my first day haul followed by the cosplayer ._.

FIRST DAY HAUL

KiDchan’s artbook. I HAD to have it!

Badges haul!!! XD

I left out Chopper… ANYWAY! NOW I DUNNID TO STEAL PUTIH’S AND FENS! XD

I COULDN’T RESIST!!!!

THIS IS SO CUTE!!!

Postcards. SO HAWT!!!

Keychains again. YOu can’t see the poring!

My new phone strap!

Bookmarks.

The 2 sketches that I requested. 2 ONLY!

The sketches I picked up for coco.

Cosplay

1st picture of the day!

Tsuna looks.. dazed.. cause… I rushed the pose and he was like.. ‘huh?’

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One whole group

BelHiba moment

Muku Hiba and Kyouya

Don’t you think Muku and Hiba are VERY close?

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My fav part. I seriously forced them to this! Just like the Tsuna and Hibari

This was a spontaneous pic. The Gokudera is damn vicious. I pity the calculator.

Familiar? Reborn and Xanxus

Mukuro Squalo? I think this was spontaneous then I saw it and forced them to it.

Jack Sparrow!

THe poster that I could not have….

Hibari.

Hibari with cat ears. Mukuro had cat ears too but I didn’t capture… =_=

HOney sempai!!!!

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I CAN’T WAIT FoR TOMORROW!!!! Please hopefully I can go!!! >/\<

The sky is so vast, the land is so wide, the ocean so deep but I’m stuck in this little place called home.

How fun is that.

Betrayed by my friend, betrayed by my parents, I knew I abandoned trust but I can’t believe I still held on to some of these attachments and as expected, trusts are what hurt you the most.

I asked my parents permission, asked my cousins. My cousins gave me a direct definite answer. My parents on the other hand ignored me. I’m fine with staying home, taking care of my younger brother for one bloody month but atleast, at the very least, give me a little freedom. What I’m asking is not to go to Japan for one week! I’m only asking to go to a sleepover, meet new people, share my interests but no. What happened to ‘you can do whatever you want after spm. I will not stop you’. I can barely go out!It’s the same. It’s the same every year.

Friendship started since god knows when I joined the drama class but it ended abruptedly when I finished my std 3 studies since I had to stop all my activities. We met each other once a year, awkwardly but then technology dawned on us and we caught up to each other as if mending a mosaic piece of cloth. Patching together the remains, we managed to redeem each others trust with a strong and great bond between us. Since we rarely meet each other face to face, the phone becomes a link. We shared feelings and secrets that we dared not tell another. Until now, I managed to stay strong, look at each day happily because when I’m depressed, I just turn to her knowing she won’t tell anyone about it. Who knew it would end up with such a horrible ending. This year both of us sat for SPM. She as a science student faced pressure from her parents and confided with me. I on the other hand, started not discussing with her about my own problems, cause I didn’t want to be a load. As the exams got enarer, her messages became more frequent, desperate for help. I tried to help but I must have failed. In the middle of the exams, she sent me one single message, a message I was shocked to get, surprised even. I didn’t know how to reply. I was unsure. This was a secret she had dare not tell me. I thought of it as just a message she sent out of stress. She was just delusional. Then today, I was feeling very down. I sms’ed her like I usually do when I’m depressed, waiting hopefully for the support she would usually give me. When she replied, it was not what I expected. What she told me before… was not a lie. My actions of not replying just made the wound deeper then what it already was. I trusted her. Trusted her so much. Too much even. I had thrown away all my trust for others when I skipped a year, because I realized then that trust only brought you down. I thought she was different. Now, I dunno who to trust. People know how to act, how do I expect to trust these people. I dunno who I can talk to anymore.

This broken feeling makes my chest feel so heavy. The feelings I have so mixed. I dunno what to do. I’m angry, sad, confused and at the same time, I have to keep a smiling face since everyone expects me to be happy. At the same time… I must admit that I am scared. All my memories of my depression always lead to one place. The hospital. I rely on what I call poison. I don’t hate injections but I hate what follows. Maybe they really do give me anti-psychotherapeutic medicines. People who cry, people who feel sadness, they face it. I don’t. Instead I cower in myself. No, I don’t want to commit suicide, that’s what I think but I only make it worst, I choke, I gasp for air, my chest hurts, oddly not the left side but the right. It’s not asthma. Doctors tell my parents I’m just panicked, confused, depressed. I know. I know I wanted answers for everything in my head. I dunno what they were feeding me. Inhaling the air in the mask as the nurse injects me with an unknown liquid, I just stare at the ceiling of the hospital, lying in the bed, listening to the silent whispers behind the curtains and the rumble of the machine. If I’m lucky, I’ll be placed outside, on a chair, able to look at people passing by. Nobody looks at me.

Who do I trust?

Can I trust these people I call and claim are my friends? My realatives? My family?

Can I trust you?